Motherhood....

As I went throughout today with both my boys in school I had plenty of time to think about motherhood. I remember bringing Marcus home from the hospital and I had a little panic attack thinking that I was always and forever going to be a mom, that thought is kind of scary. As crazy as it sounds I also remember thinking what if I get too tired, what do I do then. Well believe me in the last five short years of my life I have gotten tired and motherhood never stops, but somehow I can keep on going. It scares me as Marcus is almost ready to turn 5 that I may not be an adequate mom-all these what ifs start going through my mind-what if I don't teach him enough, what if he doesn't trust to tell me things, etc... Then I remember how lucky I am to have the gospel in my life to help guide me through it. I pray each and everyday for strength and guidance to help me through this. Hopefully with faith we will be able to do it and in 30 years my children will be having these same worries and same feeling of loving their own children, that they will take the path that will lead them to the happiness that I feel each and everyday. (Don't get me wrong motherhood gets hard, frustrating, stressful, and some days wondering can I really make it through another day!) I wish my boys lots of luck in this next year. I look forwarding to seeing their growth in school and watching them meet new friends!