Just having a moment....

So today as I watched the news when they were talking about the airplane going down in the Hudson River because of a bird strike, I realized that with age I am becoming more fearful of a lot of things in life. I think I would be okay not ever flying again, I do realize that there hasn't been a plane accident where people have died for two years, but I still am afraid. What if I would have been on that plane with my 3 babies, how could I protect them from being scared or possibly getting hurt? Yes, I know I sound like I am going crazy, but I am just having one of those gratitude/emotional moments....

As the end of 2008 was approaching I was looking so forward to a new year, a year to start over, to feel fresh and organized. Just like many of you one of my New Year's Resolutions is enjoying the moment, enjoying the time I get with my family. I feel so blessed with the knowledge that I have of our Gospel, I love knowing that my Family is Forever. But I feel like as of lately there have been a lot of people taken unexpectedly from their families and I think part of my heart breaks for those people because I am thinking, do they believe they were able to enjoy the moment with that loved one.

One thing Carson and I enjoy is spending time with our little family. We love to make memories with them that they will be able to keep forever and that will hopefully help shape them into good, respectable people as they grow up. Do I feel that I take in the moment all the time, no, not at all. Do you know how many times I am doing the dishes or I just think that I am to busy to stop what I am doing and the kids need me to come see something or help them with something and I tell them that I can't right now because I am busy. So that has been something that I have really tried to work on during the last couple of weeks. I am not sure if my kids have noticed, but I have, I feel like I am enjoying motherhood more and I kind of think my kids might seem more happy and content.

As we try to do many fun things for the kids, at times it is going places and at times it is just being at our home we hope that they will feel so loved. We also try and do FHE and read the scriptures, yes we skip sometimes, but we try. This past week we had a very neat FHE were Carson and I just kept looking at each other and without saying anything we knew how blessed we are with our children. After this past Monday I honestly feel refreshed with being a wife and mother, I feel like my battery was charged and ready for me to go again.

So yes, I am nervous to fly again just in case we hit a bird and I won't be able to protect my kids the way I want too, but I am sure I will fly again and with the help of my Father and Heaven and Carson we will be able to protect and love my kids to the best of my abilities. I just hope that I will be able to learn to enjoy the moment and to just hold my kids a little tighter each day so they always feel loved and needed in life. Carson and I want them to remember that we stopped what were doing to play and love them, not that we only could do it when we had time. Marcus, Alec, and Olivia just know that your mom and dad love you so much and we are trying to make sure we always enjoy that moment a little bit more!